2024-11-05 Journal Entry

Blah blah it’s election day, but let’s never talk about that.

I’ve been getting more excited about going to China lately. Not necessary because of anything in particular, but it seems like a tenable place to be for a long time. I think it’s missed out in favor of Thailand and the rest of SEA by digital nomads because of the government, becuase it’s not tropical, and because it’s probably hard to hold down a job there, but for me right now that doesn’t really matter. I like the seasonality, and it looks like a truly gorgeous place. Obviously the language will be a problem, but there are language schools and so on, which would also just be a nice thing to do if I did stay for a while, something to do.

But that’s all just dreaming. It’s funny because on the one hand I’m prioritizing traveling a bunch and just seeing all the new things, but I also don’t want to be too afraid of commitment for a while. I could just keep on traveling, keep on going. Why not?

Of course, what would life be like at that point? I don’t know. The one thing I note on trips with friends is how much I genuinely do appreciate solitude more. On the one hand that makes me sad, but on the other hand it feels true.

I could just sit on my own and type into this little screen for most of my days. Let myself see the stars turn overhead, hand-turned by god just for me. That feels honorable, in a way. To have worked your piece and then to just be until at all comes down.

Nothing is forever. That’s what I see so often in some of my friends. Not in a judgemental way, but you see in others (and dont’t see in yourself) all the ways in which we’re just trying to be safe. If we think hard enough, if we know enough information, then we’ll finally be able to predict everything, to see it all so clearly.

(Well I gotta go now, so uh there it is.)