2023-06-08 Journal Entry

🍃 Season: 🌷 Spring 🔆 Weekday: Thursday 🗓 Date: June 8, 2023 📅 Week: Jun 5 – Jun 11, 2023

Last night, I went out to dinner and drinks with people from work. Perhaps it’s simply me being a hermit, but I woke up today thinking how little it was worth it. The alcohol wasn’t worth it, as it so rarely is, but also I just continue to have this gnawing feeling at that sort of thing. Most of the discussion is incredibly banal — what bars are good and what Stripe employee is incredibly annoying — and I just start to check out. I think something I struggle with a bit is how to navigate conversation into places that I find more interesting. I bought that Circling course some time ago and I wonder if it’d be helpful. Alternatively, I wonder if in fact I’m just trying to pull water from a stone. It’s work after all. I don’t know, I spend so much time there that I might as well try and relate to the people I work with.

But it does continue to show me how little alcohol is worth it. I didn’t even drink that much yesterday, but it still made me sleep like shit. I’m going to try and go on a run today to see if that will get my energy up, but my first thought today was just ugh I don’t want to do this, which isn’t a place I want to stick around. Gonna push on my protocol this morning and see where it takes me.

Of course as I say that, the fire alarm for the building goes off and I get kicked out, so I’m gonna have to cut this one a little short. Here’s to hoping the building doesn’t burn down!