2023-05-20 Journal Entry

🍃 Season: 🌷 Spring 🔆 Weekday: Saturday 🗓 Date: May 20, 2023 📅 Week: May 15 – May 21, 2023

I spent the last hour or so chunking down a song that I have no real idea of what the lyrics are going to be, so I figured I’d free write here for a bit to dump things out. I started writing something about a girl who was “pure color” (yes, blatantly stolen from the Sheila Heti novel). Something about her and I would mix into new shades, new hues. Once she’s gone, everything becomes monochrome.

What’s missing now? There’s all the other colors that are gone: the blue-gray of a foggy evening, warm red candlelight, blue moonlight, royal gold, the purple of your crushed velvet sweater, hazel eyelids, green smile, the soft red hum of everything. Multicolored skies over the ocean wine-dark, all now a single gray stream.

But then they’re gone, dead in an accident. All they have left is the blood red stained everywhere. It creeps into their hair, their dress, the black earth, all stained with her color.

(Idk what the fuck this is, I need to go to bed.)

Part of me worries that my songwriting is one-dimensional, but fuck that — there’s a lot more to come.