2023-02-10 Journal Entry

🍃 Season: ❄️ Winter 🔆 Weekday: Friday 🗓 Date: February 10, 2023 📅 Week: Feb 6 – Feb 12, 2023

Good morning all, here we are. The onsite is (basically) over! I’m free, free as a bird!

So I just saw a dog outsider the window of this Blue Bottle. It’s interesting how people often have simply unnatural amounts of unconditional love to dogs. I saw this adorable golden retriever walking up the steps, ball in mouth, attentively watching its owner, and I felt in that instant that I would give my life for that dog. Its fur is graying a bit at the edges, its eyes sharp but not overly energetic. Just watchful.

There’s something so sweet about that. I think it’s totally possible to be really reductionist about this or that — “oh its just because the dog is trained for this, Pavlovian responses and all that” — but that feels like bullshit. Sometimes that’s what love is, just attuning the heart back again, over and over.

I’m so distracted right now. I don’t really know why, but I just keep going back to twitter and doing nothing. I think I’m going to revisit these morning pages letter and just doodle in my journal for a bit. Fuck computers.